The past two weeks my #anxiety and #depression have significantly dropped. And while the #ADHD symptoms remain, I am better able to manage them just a little bit better and consequently reduce the severity of their effects.
What I realized helped is taking #time. This Daily Thirty habit is taking time but I have confined it to be able to write this. What I needed was to take time every minute of my every day. Allow myself to transition between tasks, to sort through the chaos, to forgive the off-tangents and numerous side quests, and to flow less painfully into the new task. I slowed myself down versus the nonstop racing in my head. And I discovered that the world didn't fall apart, and I didn't have to fall apart myself.
Of course there were deadlines, and tons of musts and shoulds every single day. But I got more done if I took more time. Go figure. I took a lot more breaks. I broke the hard lines of my calendar.
I also got off one of my meds. I was given it to help me #sleep because the anxiety + the constant noise in my head would not let me sleep. But it has also been making me lethargic and I am overcome more often by literal physical inability to move. I took it out of the equation and played roulette with sleep. I sleep less well again but I have better control of my mornings, specifically I am able to take time in the mornings. And what I noticed is that because I felt I was doing better with my days, I only have to deal with the noise and not too much of the anxiety at night. I stopped fighting my predisposition towards Revenge Bedtime Procrastination and just embraced it. I let my brain run itself down and then I sleep. Sort of.
So this week will be my third week on this non-routine and I am fervently hoping it keeps on working.
May your day be restful and peaceful.
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